I actually kinda wish I could express a bit more neediness....I act like I dont need my T at.all most of the time. Not too authentic on my part well obviously I don't technically "need" my specific T because intellectually I believe there are many other Ts out there and I was fine (well I was alive) before I met my T, and I will be alive when we stop meeting. But there is something to be said for speaking from the heart. It might not be all how you feel, which is why an hour later you didn't fully resonate with what you wrote, but it's part of how you feel.

I think it's nice you can be so open with your T