I don't think your email was too needy or pathetic...but I don't know your whole situation and why you feel that way of course. We all are better at beating our own selves up more than anyone else is and able to help others more than we help ourselves, or at least that is true for me. Anyways, I think you got your feelings and thoughts out in a very good, controlled..nothing over the top...way. It was emotional enough to feel for and professional and understanding as well...that is just how I see it though. You can always email your T again though and apologize for the first email if you feel necessary to do so and ask to talk about it in your next session like unlockingsanity suggested.