I am having a particularly hard time today. I am wondering if they are ok. I visited with my shrink today. It was only the second time. She is very self absorbed and I found myself listening, offering advice and questioning her position as she talked mindlessly about her husband and his ill-health. I sat there wondering, why am I listening to this- when you should be asking me, how I have dealt With the emotional termination of my true hearts relationship. I understand I really do seem normal on the outer, and down to earth in the outside. Yet, my heart is broken. I am broken. Stronger for my choice, but broken hearted
For admitting defeat- that is, I could not fix them. All I needed was, for once, someone to see through that and fix me- or at least ask what is going on. All I got was her talking incessantly about herself. It's not fair.
You guys out there reading this seem to care far more.
Tell me my friends- would they hate me for turning away? Do they still love me? Did they in fact love me? Will they still fight and find a way to contact me. They know they could reach me by some means if they really wanted. I think I still want them to try- is that wrong? They were perfect in my eyes at one time- because they were self assured. Amazing. I'd give anything to see them as that again. I am rambling now. Help!!