So I have my first appointment with my therapist since her maternity leave today at 2. I don't feel like I have anything worthwhile to talk about. I'm doing really good still especially with DBT which has been my main focus since late November.

I guess I need to talk to her about the letter to x-pdoc and make a decision as to sending it or not. I mean I have written a slightly different letter asking him to consider the possibility while acquiring new and current information from my letter, T, his questions to T, then we(him and I)would sit and discuss our perspectives on the situation and make a decision TOGETHER. Just the farther I get from the termination the less I feel I need him. And I guess there's still some guilt for not doing the real work while I was with him and feel like I owe him the opportunity to really see me get well. Ugh!!! I really don't need to send this letter out of guilt! Then again even if we decide not to proceed in a patient doctor relationship maybe it will give me a bit more closure to the relationship. Hmmm??? I don't know but I will talk to her about it.

Gee isn't that just exciting!?! DBT and old P-doc. Although there are some other changes that have occurred: piano lessons, went vegan Monday, and considering dance lessons.

Well, I'll let you know how it goes after my appt.