Agreed, I understand you want to be a good parent to your kids and putting them in programs probably makes them happy, but you can't be the best parent to you kids living in an environment like that. I'd say when the program is over or comes to an end don't sign them up for another one until you guys can get out on your own. It sounds like most of your problems stem from being in that toxic household and you need to do everything in your power to leave that situation far behind. You can do it I believe in you