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Originally Posted by keeprolling
I definitely know how you feel. My friends post a bunch of things with their new buddies and all these great adventures that I will never get to have with them so it's definitely normal to feel jealous.
I guess where you go from now isn't all that clear but I think the important thing to remember is that true friends, no matter how long they're apart, will hit off when they see each other again. When my friends come back from college on break it's like they never left. But at school they rarely ever contact me and if I contact them I rarely get a reply. It's more of a "I don't see you so I don't think about you" sort of thing.
It really is a tough choice but if you were really close and you regret the decision I would encourage you to send her a message saying something like "I'm really sorry I tried to end our friendship. I was jealous over the fact that you had so many new friends and it felt like you were leaving me behind and that just made me so sad. I am really sorry that I reacted so terribly and hope you can forgive me." and then leave it up to her. The most important part is to be truthful. And then you'll have tried your best to fix the bridge but she has to meet you halfway.
Remember, it is never too late to try.
Best of luck!
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Thanks for the statements people but I'll reply to this one first.
I have been greatly considering going back after I let things cool down for some time but the main problem is that I'm so scared of being rejected. It's because like I said, I tried to do this several times (I will admit I'm a pretty emotional person, I get hurt easily but always try to hide the true reason why) and I lied to her each time about why I acted like that (I always said it was because I craved conflict when in fact I was getting jealous) now I just feel like if I try to go back....well you're right, the decision will be up to her and if she doesn't take me back then better just continue with my life.
Another problem I face are some of my friends, friends who make it seem like they will look down upon me if I go back to her. It's mostly because I mentioned alot of times before to them about things she did that annoyed me (something I seem to do if I hang out someone alot without break) and they just took it as that she was toxic for me. I just don't want to deal with the backlash from them either even though I harshly cut into one of them about it. I keep thinking that maybe I split off contact with the wrong person.
I think I might wait a little while before I try to contact her, I'm still pretty scared and nervous