Sounds like a bit of self-doubt. Have you allowed yourself to be sad, hurt, to grieve the loss of the relationship that meant more to you than the others? (I'm kind of guessing not...) When we get knocked down, it takes a while to get back up, and that is normal, it is OK. I doubt there is a problem as superficial as the things you mention...your feelings have been touched...altered...(not your hair, skin...)