Yes. It effects and impacts everyone around you. Even people you've never spoken to. I have had 2 people close to me take their own lives. They left behind ripples and echoes of themselves... and none of them good. For most, that is all that is remembered about them. Not who they were or the good memories of them. Just that they gave up, left a mess, and didn't give the people who cared about them a chance to help.

Personally, I developed phobias and PTSD from how and when they died. I feel nothing but saddness and ANGER at those people. I am sad and ANGRY, because I love and miss them still. And keep in mind that I spent almost a decade of my life suicidal. I'm not a stranger to wanting the pain to end.

This is going to sound harsh and blunt, but it has been MY TRUTH... If you are going to die anyway, why not try one last thing? If you have endured the pain this far, how much worse could tomorrow be? Cry, scream, do whatever you have to make it through today.

In my experience... Life will always get better, it just gets a little worse before it does. Troubles will come and they will go. There is an ebb and flow. Whatever you do, do not cry wolf. Be patient and ask for help. You have suffered and endured. That makes you stronger than anyone else, because you are still surviving... that isn't far from thriving.

You haven't lost until you give up. If you are still breathing, there is hope. While I have no faith in the masses, I do believe in the individual. I believe you can over come if you FIGHT. I know it is easier said than done, but it is not impossible.