Hi all...long time no speak!

Today has been a bad day and I haven't had one for a while but am withdrawing from drugs, food and cigarettes. Anyway, I work from home and have worked for my boss for nearly 4 years. In that time I have slept in once and then for a second time Monday just gone. She didn't give me a warning but FINED me £150. It was a bad day that day at work (I work on commission) and didn't even earn that that day. SO I WENT MAD> I lost it and flooded her with txts about how unfair it was and in a normal job I may have a warning but no way would they take money off me. So now she wont answer my last message. I am convinced, from what she said, that I have lost my job. I can't stop crying and full of anxiety. I feel like taking a load of tablets and partly, for some sick reason, to teach her a lesson :

I don't know what I would do without my job. It is everything to me.