I love prabs response!

Also telling yourself the positive outcome in it would help rather than forcing yourself if that is what you are doing. Force gets you no where most of the time. It's like trying to force an object double your weight with more weight weighing you down along with it.

You seem to need more patience and time to help that desire. That is when you will slowly have the weight lifted off and then will be able to push the object. Look in a positive direction in that desire. Look at all the paths it would take you if you accept it. It takes patience to let old habits to go away. Like the habit of letting go of the desire that you feel you need. Taking short cuts most of the time make the situation worse; which is the desire of wanting it NOW. That won't happen!