Me too Guys!!

I agree with Calm and I always put off treatment because I always thought I could conquer anything by myself. I never needed anyone nor did I ever want their help. I felt that the information was always "out there" for the taking and that I was intelligent and able enough to help myself.

Guess it just got really out of my hands by the time I finally went, and I wanted someone on my "side" so that's what ultimately drove me in.

I have come to view therapy as such an essential of MY life in the normal and healthy functioning of my emotions. It's a place for me to help me look at things from the atypical lense I always look through. I was unprepared for the intense relationship that therapy presents but find it rather fun and indulgent so that keeps me going.

I joke with my t that I shall never leave therapy and I'll now always want to go through all of my ups and downs that life will eventually present to me. She said that was completely fine and that I amy need her more at some times and less at others and that she has some clients like this and will allow me whatever I want/need. I also fear though that she'll move or stop her small private practice. She assures me that if she's alive, she'll see me.

So yea, for now I can say I'll always go, just maybe it'll ebb and flow as to how much and how often...