I definitely relate. Very hard with t gone. Keep yourself busy. Take lots of naps if you need to, or read a lot. In the 2years my t has been gone, i have developed a lot of new hobbies and slept a LOT!!! It has helped, although i have been up and down a wide range of emotions too just like you are. You will get through it.... I am really sorry its so hard... I hope the last week goes by really fast.