I totally get what u r saying. I struggle with the same thing. Only now I HAVE to go to work as my sick times out if control... ( mind u recently I have been getting doc notes to cover my butt). Have u done any cbt workbooks? Author of feeling good...David burns I think, has this other workbook (& it's cheesy in some ways but I did find it helpful once I did daily thought records etc.... The books title is cheesy too it's like Ten steps yo better self esteem or ten days to better self esteem... Just a suggestion. (Feeling like I over used the word cheesy.)