I just googled a Mental Health place where I'm going to try to get some help from. I'd call right now but their office closed at 5 so I will call tomorrow. I'm afraid that if I'm completely honest with them about what is going on inside my head----they'll lock me up in the hospital! I can't do that. I can't tell them about having thoughts of suicide because then they'll think I'll act on those thoughts. I NEVER would but they don't know me so they won't know that.