I did go to rehearsal, but at a cost. my tendon is a bit more inflamed, but I will have PT in a bit, which should help. There's just so much going on. I want to play clarinet that it's worth the pain, not to mention it also decreases the possibility of SI. My mind just is stuck on the experiences, and I've exercised today, I've practiced, I just haven't done to many school assignments (Which is a bigger issue.). I'm falling behind in my classes, and not feeling up to doing much. which also increases chance for si.
I also feel like I'm not good enough because of the slip, that I'm not up to everyone else around me... (ie in rehearsal I am not hitting all of the right notes at the right time due to physical limitations, and everyone around me can hear it, but it bugs me even more)
I want to say that all is well, but honestly I'm a little scared to go home tonight, due to being alone, which increases chance of si.