I guess i mean I've never felt that deep, best friend connection so many other people seem to have. Because it's not like I haven't ever had friends. But it seems like after high school, that was kind of it. Part of it, I feel, is that i'm just not a "normal" person, and it's hard to find "abnormal" people who understand you. like i'm a woman, but i can't stand 'girly' women. I don't wear makeup (for political reasons), i don't style my hair, i don't wear stylish clothes, i don't want to talk about boys, i don't like diamonds, i hate valentine's day, etc. and i know there are other women out there like me, it's just so hard for me to find people.

all of my friends after high school were through my boyfriend or my now-husband. i had one friend that i met through my husband who became my friend for a LITTLE while, but we had a falling out, and in the time she wasn't speaking to me i decided i don't like her anyway.

i really feel like i just don't understand people. i don't understand people who talk to other people or share their feelings. i guess i REALLY don't understand people who rely on other people. i guess that's part of being a friend and i'll never be able to do that. I don't even ask my husband for help. i always had to do everything on my own and learned very young that you can't rely on anyone for anything.

anyway like i said most of the time i'm fine with this. i was just wondering if anyone else had the same issue.