Wow,

I just checked and have seen all your great responses to my post and I'm so grateful! Hearing that you guys feel the same away and battle the same issue is very comforting.
My parents have offered that I go home with them for a while and while that may be the best option, I know that soon I'll feel like getting a job and then everyone will be waiting for me to fail again.
I know a little bit about Mindfulness but not much; I will further look into it. I know I need to take baby steps on days I need to go to work. Sometimes I just worry I'm so lazy that I don't go to work. I almost believe that except then why does this whole thing cause me such misery?
I see these young people at my work and while I don't know their personal situations, I am amazed that they are able to go to work all the time (I envy them).
Thanks again all for your thoughtful replies!