It kind of bothers me the way you posted this post. Granted I haven't been here for long, but I also have not seen you post. We all struggle and we are not professionals. This is called the Depression link for a reason. We all struggle with depression. The way you phrased your title and posts leads me to believe you want instant attention which I'm sorry to tell you, you will not get. We all try to give as much support as possible. If you want instant attention I recommend you call your therapist or psychiatrist. If you have neither, then try to find the county mental health office. If you have a live or die issue then please call 911.
Thanks