I am fortunate that I have a wonderful boyfriend who is compassionate and, to the best of his ability, supportive of me while I fight this latest depressive episode.

However, I am highly adverse to accepting or asking for help, and am incredibly uncomfortable being in a disproportionate relationship. He has been pulling more of his weight than he should, emotionally and financially.

This is a hardship on him. I have told him I need him to set clear boundaries for his own sake as well as mine, and I have told him my health is not his responsibility; he has a daughter and a career, and I don't want him to feel emotionally blackmailed because I am in such a bad place.

On one hand, I wish I was single so I could focus on healing myself without worrying about the burdens I place on loved ones, but on the other I know pushing good people away is the worst thing I can do.

Just wanted to share/vent.