So...I've been applying for jobs like CRAZY...but NOTHING.

Problem is on paper I look bad...because I was a stay at home mom for 11 years. And I had a couple of part time jobs throughout that time.

I need a job...but I can't just go work at a store or fast food place. I have some really bad hip and foot issues, so standing on my feet for more than 3-4 hours at a time.

I'm in school right now. Working on my Master's degree in Professional Counseling. I am thankful and surprised that I found an internship site to start next August. So that is good. Now I have to find a clinical supervisor. but that's another thing.

For now, I have been thrown into a financial tailspin...found out because my soon-to-be-ex got kicked out of the military before finishing his 4 year recommitment after transferring his GI Bill benefits (he was involuntarily discharged - but honorably, then six months later got full 100% VA disability). So two years AFTER his discharge we find out. After I have been in school. So they aren't paying this semesters tuition and fees which I will have to figure out how to pay (student loans already maxed for the year). AND I now will not be getting the $900+/month I was expecting. Oh...and they are telling me I have to pay back $14,000 they have paid out for my schooling.

So I NEED a job. I have two kids. Their dad provides some support but not enough. I get food stamps. And my rent is paid through February of 2015.

I just don't know what to do. I need a job, but no one will hire me because I look like crap on paper. I have a 3.97 GPA in graduate school (darn Research/stats class got an A-) with over 60 credits. I am smart. I am good at school.

BUT....I have anxiety and panic attacks, depression on an extreme level, PTSD....these things have gotten really bad in the past four years. I don't even know if I could function in a job. I'm so scared. Just the thought of trying to work full time (or even part time) makes my anxiety increase.

I feel so incompetent. And it is really discoursing when just about everything is online -- so I can apply apply apply. Then I go back in a few days later and it says "not selected" or "not qualified"

I don't know if I am just venting...or need suggestions (I suppose those are always helpful).