Thanks, roads. There is a waiver process and that's where we have to start...but it will take a while to find that out. And yes, we're still technically married -- living apart, but no official paperwork anywhere.

I already have bill collectors calling me 10-15 times a day. I just can't answer even because I have nothing to pay them with and no prospect of when I can.

I had an interview back in November for a work study position at the library. At the interview they asked me to consider a full time staff position. After telling me about it, they asked me what I would like. I told them my preference would be for the full time position, but that I would take the work study job. They called me and asked me to go online and fill out the staff application. Then they emailed me and said that they were just running background check and to check back with them in a week. I did. I called. Left a voicemail. No response. Then a couple days later I emailed. No response. Then a week or two later I emailed again. No response. No clue what happened. Did something happen with my background check? Did they run my credit and see that it was horrible?

And yes, I am trying to keep things very amicable with the boys' dad. He did say he would try to help me how he could, but that's not saying much...not sure to what extent the reality of his help will be.

I'm just so stressed and overwhelmed. Trying to find an oasis of peace in my life...that sounds really nice...my head just won't shut up.