YES, it would make a difference to me. I like reading your smart posts on chat. Plus, this is what keeps me from doing it, my girlfriend is into new age, earth, moon, angels, etc. one day she told me if I ended my life I would return back to this miserable incarnation to finish my karma. Needless to say, I said I'll be d amn if I have to live through this misery again, so I keep on going hoping that a natural death will catch up with me and my karmic contract with this sh itty life is over.