Despite it all, despite how you physically present, if you're female, YOU ARE FEMALE. I promise you! Some of us can't always get on hormones, or get a whole new wardrobe, or have family that will accept the change. It's a damn hard road to go down, especially alone. Thing is, here, you're not. The internet is great for connecting with other trans* people. You can find transitional housing in your state, online groups, tips, etc.

Body dysphoria is horrid. But you can and will get through this. You're not bad or damaged. You're you. And that's brilliant.