hi bazzinga1990 I so understand some of what you write about. I gave up posting in the ED area because i got 49 reads with not one response. And it was a post about my brother having just died. And how that was making the ED worse. When I saw how many people read it and didnt say a word or even send a hug I knew to give up. Finally I just erased the body of the post and never returned. I commend you for not giving up. You reached out and posted about it. I think thats awesome. And you can see the response you got. Awesome. Not like me who went away with my tail between my legs never to return to the ED area of the forums.