Hello ifthespiritmovesme-

I was moved by your post and I can empathize with your experiences. I have also been battling with depression my entire life and I am so tired of fighting the painful symptoms. It's never ending. I can also understand why you felt relief about your possible diagnosis of cancer-but I also don't want you to suffer another minute-whether it's physical or mental pain. For that reason, I am hoping that you do not have cancer and that you will find the peace and happiness that you deserve. I wish there was something I could do to help. I am here if you ever want to talk.