This is a quite difficult topic for me to mention, but I have barely slept last night because I've been thinking about this too much.

Last spring my T/Pdoc was willing to start Trauma work with me, from the first session on I told I've been sexually abused and raped by my grandpa at age 6 and by my brother when I was 9 to 13. So I thought she knew what she was getting into.

But after the first session on trauma work, she told me that what my brother had done to me was much worse than she would have expected, that she hadn't realized how bad it really was. And after the second session on this she decided to postpone trauma work until I am out of the house it all happenned in.

I've always wondered why the little I told her was worse than she expected as I've always told her he raped me, so what's left to be worse.
But last night I realized that during that session her attitude changed a bit when I said he also raped me anally... so would that be what she didn't expect? Is **** raped considered "worse" than vaginal rape?

I know I should probably aske her, but that would be so akward...