I had to ask for help today. I have been so sick the last couple of days that I have had a hard time taking care of mine and my daughter's basic needs. My husband is in classes right now so he hasn't been able to help. I asked him to take my daughter to a friends house so I can just be sick for a bit.

I feel so guilty asking for this help, the depression makes it hard enough to function and now I can't even handle the bare minimum.

To make things worse I have felt so disconnected from my husband these last few days. I can feel the frustration rolling off of him. This morning he told me he is frustraded that having to take care of me might jeopardize his place in the course he is taking. He says he is not mad at me but I am having a hard time seeing the difference. I am trying to not ask for help, I am trying to be as little of a burden as possible but I just can't appear to manage it.

Somehow I always manage to impose on the ones around me. To top it all off my small person had a melt down leaving this morning so hello mommy guilt.

Sorry, about the whinyess and thanks for reading, I just feel completely useless and a waste of space today.