Yes, zinco, it sounds like you have been through this. After years of it, you get to believe that this is a permanent part of your makeup. Sucks, doesn't it. The most I aspire to is that the "tailspins" will come less frequently and last less time. Even that takes so much effort. Then a spell of doing pretty good ends, and recovery is hard.

Hi ifthespirit. I hope you pick up too. Today is a good deal better than when I started this thread. I have to get things accomplished today, if I want to not slip back.