You know I obsessively watch every little thing you do and say for signs of rejection, right? I am convinced that eventually, the other shoe will drop and you will abandon me. And yesterday, you weren't there in the way you normally are. I know you were probably just busy, but in my mind, things don't work that way. I know that's not fair to you, and extremely selfish of me, but you definitely weren't responding in the ways you normally do. I had a really hard day, and you felt very distant. I feel so stupid for feeling like this because I know you better than that. But I still feel like I have been abandoned, so on top of a difficult day, I don't feel like I can really rely on you now. *Sigh* I wish I was more fair and rational when it comes to my relationships.