Darkfairy,

Did you say it mainly happens when you are with someone or talking to someone? Do you notice if it is when you've been talking to them for a while, or does it happen randomly when with somebody, right away? And can it also happen when you are in a public place alone?

It seems like there is probably a link between the stress - perhaps the fear of being close to someone else and them getting more of a chance to know you and talk to you personally - and the onset of these fugue/dissociative/depersonalization symptoms. Perhaps your mind feels unconsciously threatened by talking to other people, and it is trying to protect you because it fears that you some traumatic experience from the past may reoccur in the present, even if that fear is not realistic.

These symptoms are described in a book I read by Lawrence Hedges, Working the Organizing Experience. He relates these symptoms' appearance to the earliest periods of preverbal memory, in which neglectful or traumatic experience is internalized, and then reexperienced with various strange defensive symptoms, like you describe, in later life.

Sorry if this is too personal - may I also ask what your experience has been in therapy so far, is it generally useful? It sounds like you have at least some doubts about it.