Dear Poster,
Women are or can be cult like in the workplace.
It is a good quality not to be baited into the drama.
Leaving behind that 1st job took courage, use that courage in your current quest for normal workplace.
Work is also hard to find so being able to work for self may not be exactly what you want but that is what work is, you provide a service/product and receive payment for services.
A job will make you feel like you are just existing not finding joy in what you do. Likewise not having activities that you enjoy outside of work can leave you unhappy and dissatisfied.
Take stock of what you do have, maybe it is time for a career change!
Don't allow fear from the past keep you from moving forward.
In life you will come across all types therefore it is up to you how to handle them.
You can be kind and assertive. Posture, keeping your head up, body upright back straight and language skills will keep bullies out!
Also recognize that working from home has its own advantages and disadvantages.
Working from home keeps you safe from the dynamics of socializing with distasteful people on the job. It also excludes traveling to and from work.
On the downside it makes your home also your workplace with no defining line, which can make you feel as though you are always on.
Home should be a refuge from work. Do you have a room dedicated for work?
Tip, never bring laptop/work phone for work into either your bedroom or kitchen.
Tip, take breaks and get out of the house daily. I know this may seem impossible in today's tech world & when working for self.
For your health and wellbeing it is a must.
Yes some days you can't do it because of time sensitivity of projects, I get it.
Maybe hire someone as an apprenticeship 3x a week to answer calls/faxes/do the minors of the job and you get to pick the person that you feel comfortable with.
It could be the beginning of branching out into different areas. New Beginnings!!
Sorry to be long winded. I do wish you enjoyment in life, it is precious, and beauty all around.
Happiedasiy