I have a meeting (work related) in an hr and 10 mins.
I am unsure if it's anxiety or amotivation, or even just exhaustion as yesterday I ran on 5 hrs sleep that's making me not want to go.
I said I would attend..
Parts of me wants to go...
I just got up and I'll have to rush to get ready, and I'm not even sure if at this point if I have to take the bus or if my partner can drive me..... Ie I'm also at risk of being late and I dislike all eyes on me entering a meeting late.
Crap, this feels stupid to talk about. I just feel torn. I can see that if I don't go I'll likely beat myself up for the day. Ahhhhh needing encouragement please!