The short answer?
I look it over there at times but it makes me more depressed and anxious so I tend to stay away.

Anyhow, I joined here for Bean. To understand her and get advice and insight into what is going on with her, what to do and what not to do and am eternally grateful to be here - my first forum - and the friends I have made.

When I feel depressed, I go where I know everyone and they know me. You all are too awesome.