Don't feel stupid BethAnne. It's a hard choice to make where kids are involved. That makes it a little more understandable to me anyway. I'm soooo sorry. Apparantly you've tried to improve the situation. I wish things were better for you. At least you recognize abuse when you recieve it. Don't buy into it and let it drag you down. Have you tried contacting an abused women's shelter? It sounds as if you've surrendered to this. I can only imagine how overwhelming making a change would be.
Welcome to the boards BethAnne. I hope you will find the kindness and support I have. And don't feel stupid

"This too shall pass...."