First of I apologize for use of language I may use in this post and hope I do not offend anyone. I'm feeling all kinds of mixed emotion at this moment but the one that stands out the most would be RAGE! I'm so pissed off with my family and just how damn selfish some of them can be. My grandmother is dying and all these ****s think about are what they want or what they are going to get. Today they took my grandmother off basic life support as per her living will and the decision made by my father and his brothers. I made my peace with it and I told my grandmother my goodbyes so I'm not so much upset about that but from a conversation that my cousin decided to have with me on the very day that my father and uncles have made this decision. She has the audacity to explain that she and her father had discussed the fact that she needed a vehicle all of this being a prior conversation which means its been in the plans for who knows how long. So she proceeds to say "I hope that this isn't an inappropriate time but do you want the car"? All kinds of thoughts ran through my head at this moment some of which I will not mention but SERIOUSLY? Are you kidding me!!!! NO I don't think that this is the time to discuss this matter SHE IS STILL ALIVE ugh this is just making me so sick to my stomach to be losing my grandma and to have to deal with this moron! Being the type of person I am I kept my cool and just simple told her that if she had the money to pay for it then it was hers. I just can't believe this is happening but then again sure I can because my cousin was never there to visit my grandma, never called her to say hi, sad thing is she only lived an hour away. Oh but now she devastated crying and boohooing over losing a woman that she couldn't take 5 minutes out of her busy life to call and check up on. I on the other hand live 3 hours away and I made it up once a month to visit my parents and always made a point to see my grandma and when I did live in town I mowed her grass, helped her around her house, went to lunch with her,sat and talked for hours about how she grew up and the journals she kept through out her life and all the crazy stories she had to tell. She really meant a lot to me and to see the spectacle that my family is putting on over this just disgusts me. As I sit here in tears because I'm losing my friend my heart just hurts so bad. I was going to go back home and see her one last time but I just couldn't do it emotionally I didn't want the last moments of my grandmothers life to be in sadness and seeing her struggle to breathe I just couldn't handle it. Anyway that's my rant thanks for reading!