Asking for help is THE HARDEST thing for me to do. I understand why it feels like defeat. You feel like you should be able to solve your own problems. That you should be strong enough to deal with the pain... to see past it.

It's just not that simple. Not when you are depressed, and especially, not when you are sick on top of it all. You can't think straight. Everything goes out of focus.

The fact that you knew you needed to ask for help is AMAZING. The fact that you had to strength to be vulnerable is AWE INSPIRING.

As far as TMI goes... proceed reading with caution.

If you haven't been able to keep anything down for days, it is a downward spiral. Fluids and your meds are most important. Being dehydrated, having your chemical levels crash and being malnutrishoned is dangerous. If it goes on for more than 10 days, you need to go to the doctors.

I had a Rx for anti-nausea that helps me keep things down (I get migraines several times a week). If that isn't accessible to you, try Pepto to coat your stomache. Then, try Tea with honey or sugar. Dry toast or Saltine crackers. Something dry and easy to go down... or that will easily come back up. I can't imagine how torn up your throat must feel. Gargling or sucking on ice helps, just to keep your mouth/throat moist. Also, if you are throwing up, but have nothing in your stomach... the acid/bile coming up could be causing more damage than you realize.

**TMI: When I'm in this situation, I chug room temp water right before I feel like I am about to retch. That way I don't spend hours dry heaving and bring up bile that burns my throat and mouth. Sorry for the gory details.**

I hope you feel better on all levels. Hang in there, and be kind to yourself. Don't kick yourself when you are already down. There are enough forces in this world that will do that for you. So give yourself a break to breathe. You can feel guilty later when you are up to it.