Hi Hazelgirl, If you weren't/can't be "normal" after what you've experienced (which I'd say is SO over-rated anyway) you still have the chance to be better than "normal". You are still young, and you have the chance to make your life into what YOU want it to be.
There's been a few people in your life who you would have been much better off without but they are a fraction of the people who can come into your life and guaranteed there will be so many more than that few who actually deserve to be in your life if you give them the privilege of being there.
Your life really is now your own (at last) and you can start making up some time. Now what do YOU want to do. Where do YOU want to go. Don't let your parents or anything else take anything away from you. You've paid the price, now it's YOUR TIME!!
Maybe that can involve you getting some help with things if you think you need it but now you CAN/will be able to control what goes on for you.
And now......I am (and I'm sure a lot more people on here are!) telling you that you ARE worthwhile and valuable....
And WE are here for you to come to for help and advise. You're not alone!!
So one step at a time, one day at a time, and don't forget that you can be better than "normal".
Alison