I guess it's just something I'll try to work on, but I doubt I'll be changing, anytime soon. xD The thing is, I'd rather be like this, than one of those arrogant musicians that have no respect for what they do; I've met people like that, and there's just no way in hell I wanna be that way.
The Mario theme tune is basically from Super Mario Brothers, and is in fingerstyle; it's quite classical, IMO, and not all that simple. If you forget, for a moment, that it's Mario, a game, it's actually quite a kewl piece of music. Besides, Mario was the first computer game I played, and I have some fond memories of it; a small part of my childhood that wasn't tainted.
Unfortunately, as nice as all these things you are saying, I'm still left with a lot of anxiety when I play for folk, or when I record. What I can't understand, is that it seems like I get more anxious recording, than I do playing for someone. I think it's because, when it's recorded, it's permanently there, so as to immortalize my mistakes. Also, the OCD makes me want to do it perfectly, and OCD commonly causes anxiety. I guess when I'm playing for somebody, I feel like mistakes are more acceptable and I can just laugh it off (as much as it might piss me off) but when I'm recording, things needs to be bang-on, else what's the point in demonstrating skill or a piece of music, if it's just a load of nonsense? It brings me right back to the whole thing where I don't want to be judged based on my mistakes. Or maybe I'm doing all the judging myself, IDK, ... I confuse myself. Even when I'm practicing by myself, and I make mistakes, it pisses me off; then again, that's probably completely normal.
It almost seems like the stuff you're saying is from experience, or by proxy - do you do public speaking, or perhaps have a family member who is a musician?
EDIT: I actually have no choice but to have a break from the guitar, because I've got a couple of blisters on my fingers; they're quite sore. >.< I stubbornly tried to play a second ago, and I could barely get anything done, it was too sore and uncomfortable. I guess a break is in order!
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