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Originally Posted by serenity2298
How do you love yourself? I have so much self-hate I often think the world is better off without me. I fall into these really deep depressions. Sometimes I cope better but even then I loathe myself too. How do I get over that? I'm told I'm a beautiful girl but I just don't see it. It's my actions that I hate too, everything I do is not good enough. It makes me feel so unloved because I have no one in my life apart from my son and a friend and when I upset her which I have because of my difficulties I hate myself even more, I don't mean to do it! It's like there is no one to love me. I know my son loves me but he's just 4 and a half with severe language delay, so he doesn't talk much. I feel very unloved and think that if I can't love myself who can really? How can i try to fix this?
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Serenity,
I also deal with self-esteem issues. Have been for a long time. I think the trick is to just keep to trying to understand yourself. It will take lots of time and money, if therapy is involved. But, it will be worth it for you to get on the right track, and the earlier the better. Don't get to your 40's without resolving your issues. I'm having a heck of a time right now, dealing with low-self esteem and feeling good in my own skin.
I've scheduled an appointment with a new therapist next week, because I've been in a really scary funk. One of those, where you feel like you could be admitted soon.
Try different therapists until you find the right one for you. They come in all shapes and sizes, and you just want to make sure you get the right fit!;-) I wish you the best of luck finding a good therapist.
