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Originally Posted by jagenzwei
I don't have friends. Except for my husband and occasional chatting with someone on facebook. I don't know how to make friends, or keep friends. And people drain me anyway, they make me tired, and I feel the need to be alone to recharge ... no matter how much I like being around them. And I think I am a magnet for drama llamas. People that do want to be around me bring their baggage, or don't understand that I don't want to smoke, drink, or do drugs, go clubbing, or ...uh, public, things. I feel like such a weirdo, then I am more isolated.
But I do like people, or at least I like to be around good people. I thought about volunteering for a medical bus that helps the homeless, but they might think I'm too weird and not want me around either.
Sometimes it seems like it is easier to just be alone.
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Thanks for your nice reply jagenzwei. People can be draining. And, I'm sure I am draining to my husband right now! My kids are still pretty young and oblivious to the depression, so they're good. I am also one who prefers solitude, especially when I'm feeling down. I also tend to get nervous walking into a room already full of people. Something I'm working on. It is so good that you don't have any vices! I'm glad you're not swayed by your friends who drink and smoke. I think if it's in your heart to volunteer, you should definitely try it. You may find that you love it!! Good Luck to you!