I'm not saying that this is your only option but I just went back on meds after a year of being off and have found it amazingly helpful. My anxiety and OCD were getting out of hand again and I'm glad my doc and T advised me to start meds. It feels like I'm starting to have my life back again. Everything is not perfect and I'm going through some rough times at this moment but I don't know what I'd do without meds.

I hope things improve for you and I wish I could help but I couldn't get over those things without meds. I hope you have better luck... many people do.

((((((((((hugs))))))))))