I only get one shot…I waited nearly ten years to get kissed again by anyone and I have to immediately know what I'm doing.

And, I also have to ask…if this is how other peoples' journeys begin, then why is it how my journeys end?

And there's no fog of lust…maybe a fog of alcohol or desperation, but not lust.

Now, I'll just kiss whoever wants to kiss me…I'd go the rest of my life alone if I only kissed those I liked and if I were to ever kiss sober.


It's inherent to other people because they've had practice. Also, I'm always several years younger than my friends and more innocent because I was always focused on school/education and rarely even partied or anything. And apparently that was all a mistake. I have nothing to show for it…no career, no family really…I haven't even managed to put a band together even though it's been my dream for a decade and music is almost all I've studied for almost that long. So I've failed at everything I could possibly fail at over and over again.

And for the last quote, I must respond (jokingly…sort of) with the lifeguard fish from Spongebob: