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You have had a really rough life. Getting over all of those things isn't something that anyone can just do. If you try to stuff it away somewhere, it comes out someplace, such as self-destruction. I hope that you can get some help, because you shouldn't just have to live with those effects on you. And I think that protecting your children by not exposing them to people who are not safe is the right thing to do.

I would like to invite you to also visit our self-injury forum. You will find others there who can understand the way that you feel.

TC,
Rap