I have no support ever. Everyone denies because they don't understand psychosis. I'm really sad, I had no support from my parent's friend and anyone who I met medically and therapy wise. I am tired being talked down to when I can't help it. I just want to be loved by these people, but be left in this regret of being alive, because I'm not good enough to be positive for them. I am always positive and happy and when I can't help this. I get treated like ****. I don't have successful relationships, and this is so severe it's very crippling. I can't take it, I just want my body to and my psychosis to stop trying to kill me. I didn't deserve this, I fight it all the time alone. I don't have anyone, I wish I did.