I can't go to college, my therapist I rarely see, I am under provided with care, and insurance doesn't give a **** too be honest I'm too expensive to live in their eyes. I feel like less of a human from this. I don't want my life to be trapped from this. I'm climbing out desperately the best I can, that's all I can do no one has accepted it. I'm just forced to be like this. I am probably have to be on dissability and go through vocational intensive therapy, since my parents can't help me nor I can financially help myself from my movement disorder and other neuro stuff and my psychosis. No one believes me unless I'm out cold dead or I have to do something incredible or look normal to social norms when I cannot at all. It's not fair. I don't like it, but I put up with it all the time I respect people the best of my abilities. I hate psychosis, because you won't be taken seriously no matter what you say. If you're really sick no one can tell, unless you die in front of them. It's already down to that. I'm just waiting to die from my medical stuff so people can take care of me for once.