I agree with what Vunderful wrote about intimate love....I think it is an idea.....for women, usually a dream fulfillment or just not to be alone. I wish I lived in a more laid back community where people actually smile in public; here it is all very harsh, most businesses are so greedy I have to fight every day not to get ripped off by some contractor or dentist...so, then my defense is to retreat, the bridge goes up and I lock myself in. It is frustrating for me, with certain borderline traits, because I think I'm highly sociable, but also guarded around people, so that I don't let my guard down and feel inhibited, except I'm very funny and can make people laugh. I also have dramatic highs, but have never done anything destructive. I think my sweet dog gets me, though, and I feel safe with her. Enough of this...it is way too late to be up and writing. The more I examine this, the stronger I feel about a change of locale for awhile.