So i can read my pdoc/psychologist notes after 3 days online.

basically in the last session I smiled because she was saying some silly stuff or i was smiling out of awkwardness or smiling out of confusion. She thinks I was smiling because I'm feeling better and she hasn't seen me smile in our 8 sessions of seeing each other this year(I go every week because they have me as high risk).

also when she ask if I'm having suicidal thoughts she always says I declined, then goes on to say I'm having they multiple times a day every day?

They still use DSM IV at the office and my gaf score for that day was a 48.

Anyone have any advice on how to stop smiling? I think I might start wearing a rubber band around my wrist and plucking it again.

I'm not better, if I was better I wouldn't be so pissed at what I just read!