My best friend was taken from me six months ago and I know exactly how you're feeling. How long ago did you lose her? For the first few months after she was murdered I felt nothing. I didn't cry really, I didn't feel anything at all. I was numb. I found out that this pretty normal, you're experiencing shock and possibly even PTSD. I thought I was a monster for not feeling, but I will tell you that you will feel again and it will hurt. It will come back to you and you may not be ready for it. If you ever want to talk feel free to reach out to me. <3