I can understand what you mean, with thinking it's only a matter of time before the T relationship falls apart...I talk to my t about this very thing quite often. I do believe it gets to him...but I also try to phrase it in respectful ways. It's just if we don't talk about it, then how can it be worked on? Like you, I try to push that concern away and just push past it but it never works /:

For example, I told my T that it seemed like he was angry with me the week before. He denied this and put it back on me, my past, etc. I told him what he said DOES make sense, true. But I also think something else may be going on. I said I know he's human and I would rather he be honest with me. Now, maybe I am just projecting. Maybe I am mad at my T unconsciously and I am the one not telling him. But we have had at least one rupture where his frustration came out at me. He was very apologetic.

So basically, I'd rather a T just be more real. Do you feel like your T is being real or honest with you?