The other posters have given some wonderful suggestions. I just wanted to say that I empathize with you, and send my best wishes. I'm a 21-y-old junior in college, and my freshman and sophomore years felt a lot like what you described. I was diagnosed with depression back then, and finally with bipolar disorder last year after a psychotic break + hospitalization.

It's great that you're reaching out for help. Try to make the most of the resources available to you, and get as much help as possible so that you can understand your unique situation.

I would be happy to talk with you, e.g. over personal message, about staying mentally healthy while at college (and anything else!). Take care, and good luck!

- Allie